In My Dreams

September 21, 2006 - I got to hug Bubu in a dream today. I did not see his face, but I know it was him. He was wearing a white shirt and at first, I doubted if he was real because, in the dream, we all sort of know that he's gone. So I touched his arms first and when he felt real, I hugged him as tightly as I could. It was only for a few seconds, but the feeling lasted til I woke up.

 

This is the last dream I was able to remember after a long long time, and I know I wouldn't forgive myself if I forgot it when I woke up. But I did dream and I did remember. The moment I woke up, I instantly felt mixed emotions. Overwhelmed with joy because I was able to be with him. Then sadness overcame when I realize it can only happen in my dreams. All feelings rushed back just like when he was still alive. I desperately asked God to give him back, in any way or in any form... but deep inside I know, dreaming will be the only way for me to see him again.

 

I know you may think it's unfair for the person I am with, but I think he has somehow accepted the fact that part of my heart will always be with him. That he will always have to share it with him. I'm sure he knows it, I'm sure he has accepted that fact and I'm sure he respects it... and I'm gonna really love him for that.

LSS

Nakapagtataka
(J. Paredes)

Walang tigil ang gulo sa aking
pag-iisip
Mula nang tayo'y nagpasyang
maghiwalay
Nagpaalam pagkat hindi tayobagay
Nakapagtataka,oh.

Kung bakit ganito ang aking
kapalaran
Di ba't ilang ulit ka nang
nagpaalam
At bawat paalam ay puno ng iyakan
Nakapagtataka, nakapagtataka

Chorus:
Hindi ka ba napapagod,
o di kaya'y nagsasawa
Sa ating mga tampuhang
walang hanggang katapusan
Napahid na ang mga luha,
damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala nang maibubuga,
wala na 'kong maramdaman.

Bridge:
Kung tunay tayong
nagmamahalan
Ba't di tayo magkasunduan
Oh, oh.

Walang tigil ang ulan
at nasaan ka, araw
Napano na'ng pag-ibig sa isa't
isa
Wala na bang nananatiling pag-asa
Nakapagtataka, saan ka napunta?

Hindi ka ba napapagod,
o di kaya'y nagsasawa
Sa ating mga tampuhang
walang hanggang katapusan

Napahid na ang mga luha,
damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala nang maibubuga,
wala na 'kong maramdaman.oohh

Napahid na ang mga luha,
damdamin at puso'y tigang
Wala nang maibubuga,
wala na 'kong maramdaman.

Kung tunay tayong
nagmamahalan
Ba't di tayo magkasunduan
Oh, oh.

Bad Hair Day

Don't you just hate a really bad haircut? I got possessed last Sunday and decided to change my 'do' all of a sudden. I think the stylist was possessed as well because she turned my hair into a wig in no time. It was totally hideous, I can't even bare to see my reflection in the mirror. It totally looked like a wig, especially when I'm fresh out of bed. I looked like a lion with a seriously unmanageable mane.

I was so desperate to get it fixed, right the next day I went to a salon at the mall. Right then and there, they basically rejected my hair and refused to do anything to it. I gave it another try the next day, and I got nothing. Unbelievable. That's how bad it is.

So by Wednesday, I was already so frustrated and desperate to have my hair fixed, I was willing to pay loads of money to get it done. I asked around six different salons for a quotation and they all gave me a four-digit sum except for one. I was a bit skeptic on that one salon. My hair got to its present condition because I refused to spend a huge amount on it. So I decided to go with the lowest four-digit sum that was offered to me. The salon's name is a bit reassuring too, First Aid Salon. My hair seriously needs all the first aid it can get. So after more than four grueling hours, having two stylists work on my hair and spending a whole lot of money... my hair got better. True to their name, they were able to bring it back to life! I just hope it will last long enough for me to think that it was money well-spent...